Humility...A Key To "More"

I have this indescribable hunger for God within me.  I want to be with Him, I want to walk with Him, I want to talk to Him, I want to listen to Him, be challenged by Him...KNOW HIM.  It's like I can't sit still.  Everything within me shakes for something that I do not have yet.  I want it; I need it. I know it's out there somewhere waiting to be tapped into.  I know I haven't even tasted of the very thing I'm living to grab ahold of.  I can't quite name it, but if I had to name it...I would call it "MORE".  I'm willing to dedicate my whole life to finding out what "more" is.  It's out there, I know it, and I'm going to get it! 

I just read one chapter in Andrew Murray's book "Humility" and I feel so stirred.  I'm stirred for more humility.  It intrigues me greatly and this is one thing I'm desperate for...it's part of "more".  I feel as if humility is one major thing that the church today is lacking.  We are self-sufficient, independent, and hardly desperate.  

In the particular chapter that I was reading Andrew Murray gave the illustration of how water falls down and resides in the lowest place it can reach.  "Just as water ever seeks and fills the lowest place, so the moment God finds the creature abased and empty, His glory and power flow in to exalt and to bless."  Therefore, we must reside and abide in the lowest place and remain fully immersed in the water so that His glory may be shown. 

With such a powerful illustration and anointed word, I believe, comes a significant weight to carry and a responsibility to walk out the message given.  It's almost as if the more we walk in pride, the more we emerge out of the water, and the more that happens, the more confused we get- disillusioned and deceived.  Oxygen is to our flesh as water is to our spirit, in a way. 

With this revelation that God has given me, I almost feel as if He's told me the world's/church's biggest secret.  He wants to glorify and be glorified in the lowest of people- the most humble.  When I finished the chapter, I started listening to some worship music and heard the lyrics "Glory, Glory, Send Your Glory" and was, I guess, broken and convicted all at the same time.  How can we beg for Him to send His glory when we are saturated with pride? 

Overall, I feel like people think that things like humility are just byproducts of His glory filling us.  Though that is the case to a certain extent, I want to step out on a limb, provoke some thoughts, and suggest another theory.  I'm not quite sure yet, but I dare to think that we must be in the right place, HUMBLE, in order to properly receive more of His glory.  I'm more than open to being wrong, but I'm willing to risk being right.  Yes, it is a risk because if indeed I am right, then God and I have a lot of work to do in order for me to become like Him... The Servant Of All... HUMBLE. 

"And let us believe that what He shows, He gives; what He is, He imparts.  As the meek and lowly One, He will come in and dwell in the longing heart." (Andrew Murray)